By now, you will have realised that I made it across to France. Yay!!! On the communications front, the high risk strategy of allowing my husband access to the blog without me being in a position to vet his comments worked out alright. Now it's the time for my version of the story...this will be a looonnngg post!
On Wednesday 18th I went to meet Steve and Geoff to swim in the harbour at 10am. I was expecting Steve to take the Thursday opening, but he said that he was not ready so it would be open for me. I wasn't sure then if two of my support crew - husband Matt and close friend Laura - could make it down in time, but I cut my morning swim short just in case. When I got out Dave was there and he offered me the slot. I rang Matt, and he said he could make it, and we should take it...so I told Dave yes, and preparations began!
Swims are never confirmed until a few hours before. Dave said he would confirm at 6 or 7pm, and we would have to be at the boat at 1am for a 2am start from Abbott's Cliffs. It was a mildly hectic day - more so for mum and dad, as I basically ate a huge bowl of spag bol and went to bed for a couple of hours (didn't really sleep though). Mum and dad had to get Bug to Matt's mum, which involved complicated manouvers at Clackett Lane services, and they also had friends Pat and Maurice (and their grandson George) visiting. By now it was apparent Laura couldn't make it, which was disappointing but we all understood. I got everything prepared and left dad with instructions on how to mix the maxim and went to bed at 6.30pm. At 7, dad phoned Dave. It was a go.
Mum woke me at midnight, and I climbed out of bed to have a big bowl of porridge whilst putting on suncream (slightly strange thing to do at midnight). Matt turned up shortly after and quickly appropriated the video camera - he sees himself as Jacques Cousteau, or Alan Wicker, I'm not sure which. We were at the boat by 1am. I was kind of nervous, but it also didn't feel that real. By 1.30 we were chugging out of the marina. Out by the mouth of the harbour it was pretty choppy, and I was starting to feel more nervous. Shortly after I had greased up, I found myself hurling over the side - more nerves than sea-sickness I think. I felt better afterwards, but there wasn't much time to enjoy it, as it was time to climb in.
The boat trained a spotlight on the beach, and I had to swim to it - it was maybe 20m from the boat. I remember really clearly seeing the pebbles thrown into sharp relief by the light. I stumbled out, and got myself well clear, then heard the horn of the boat so I raised my arm and in I went. I knew the water was 16degrees, and it felt ok, just the same as in the week's training swims.
The boat was lit with red and green lights so it was easy to see but not harsh on the eyes. I had been worried I wouldn't much enjoy swimming in the dark but it was actually really fun. It was a beautiful night, with stars out, and the lightstick in my goggle strap gave off a glow that just entered my peripheral vision so the water didn't seem pitch black. It was pretty cool to be swimming in the english channel when most people were tucked up in bed. I saw a few boats, including a beautiful cruise liner decked out like a christmas tree. For the first hour, my main concern was the boat - I breathe both sides, and since it was quite rough it seemed that the boat could shift quite a lot within the timespan of 6 strokes (the boat was on my right side). I was worried about drifting too far from it or getting banged by it. The first feed at one hour came quite quickly (though it was tough - you try catching a bottle on the end of a fishing line in the pitch dark...) and then after that the water got calmer and I got more comfortable with the boat.
The second hour was a good one. The third hour it got a bit rough again, but I had a beautiful sunrise to distract me. I could also see that dad was in a fairly fixed position, and Matt was missing - sea-sickness? I asked at the three hour feed if everyone was ok, and if there was any sea sickness. Matt and mum exchanged wry glances and said "All fine!", which didn't fool me at all. After my third hour, we dropped to feeding every 30mins. I was feeling ok, and by four hours my toes had come back to life. My hands didn't seem to be clawing at all, which I was thankful for.
At four hours Matt pointed out some boats we had overtaken which started an hour before us, which was a nice boost. By six hours my hips were really starting to hurt, so I had some ibuprofen which took care of that. At this point I was starting to wonder how far I had got. I had asked Matt to tell me when I was half way, but not if I was doing really badly and it took me ages to get there. I told myself I couldn't ask. I could see all the boats in front of me were going left-to-right, and I knew the NE shipping lane was the lane closest to France - but then I started wondering if it was like the wind, and the NE bit referred to where the boats came from and not where they were going...in which case it would mean I was still in the UK-side shipping lane. It was an enormous boost when Matt told me at 7 hours that we were "well past" half way. I spent a little while after that trying to figure out what time that might mean I would finish in - in the end I thought I just had to keep on thinking that I had to swim for at least 14hours, and then we'd see where I was.
I was going well at this point, I felt like I was almost surfing across, like the tide was with me and I was flying (it was, and I was - 7km/h!!). Mentally it was getting tough, though: the novelty had worn off I guess. I kept counting up how many feeds til 14 hours. I had a different song in my head to earlier - earlier it had been Bowie's "modern love", a song that I've sung in training a lot, so I was pleased with that as it suggested I was on a good rhythym. Now I had a new one: Police "walking on the moon". I wasn't sure if that meant I had dropped my work rate at all. We had seen patches of sea weed, and I had seen a lot of jelly fish, but only one stung me - they were mostly a couple of metres below the surface.
Around 9 hours I started coughing in the water, and my shoulder was beginning to trouble me a little, but I was heartened by Dave telling me I'd be out of the shipping lane within an hour. I had ibuprofen again at the ten hour mark for the shoulder. The cough was still persisting, and I had to work hard to stop it; I knew I only had energy for swimming or coughing, not both. I was also feeling pretty cold. Unbeknown to me the temperature had dropped below 15 degrees a couple of hours back. Around 10.5 hours I asked how far to go (bad girl! This is a no-no!). I was told "three miles, about an hour and a half". I thought to myself that it would take me a lot longer than 90mins to swim 3 miles, given what I had heard of the last section. I told myself to expect at least 2 and a half hours.
The timings get a little confused for me from then on. On every feed I was finding myself slipping a long way behind the boat. I had a feed and was told it had to be short. I could see land quite clearly. Suddenly I could make out the lighthouse at Cap Gris Nez but it was in silhouette with no detail so I knew it was still a fair bit away. I had a feed and was told it was my last one. Voices were getting urgent. The lighthouse wasn't getting any nearer. The water was confused and I was getting thrown around. I was trying to kick but there wasn't much in the tank. I didn't feel like I was making any progress at all. (I wasn't - the tide had turned against me, and if anything, I was going sideways). I kept looking up, and eventually I put my head up to ask if I was going forward, and got shouts of encouragement back, but everyone was sounding very tense. I put my head up again a few times, and eventually crewman Brian said "shut up and swim!". So I did, though there wasn't much power in the swimming.
Suddenly they were calling me in for another feed - hot chocolate. Dad said I was in calm waters now, though I didn't much believe him. The lighthouse was away on my right now so I knew we were heading for the beach now. I could see some patches of golden sand. I still wasn't convinced I was making headway, but then I realised I could see more detail on the beach. After a while I could see people! I was nearly there! I swam and swam until my hands hit sand, then I stood up and walked. And fell over. Then got up again and walked in.
There was a small crowd of french people on the beach. I knew I had to get clear of the water and I was afraid one of them would touch me before I did, and void the swim, but they parted to let me through. Then I turned round and saw Matt coming in! I hadn't even realised he was in the water. The french people crowded round and congratulated me - Matt spoke to them a bit, but I couldn't remember any of my french then, I just smiled a lot. A very nice lady started massaging my shoulders - I did remember how to say "merci". I felt pretty dreadful and cold, and just wanted to get back on the boat, so Matt and I got back in the water. I tried to swim, but it was just too hard, so I had to get Matt to tow me - I held his foot and did breastroke kick whilst he swam with all his might.
Back on the boat, all I could think of was how tough the last bit had been. We got me dry and dressed and wrapped up in a sleeping bag, and then I started to cough in earnest. Lots of nasty coloured fluid was coming up. I tried to sleep but it was impossible with the coughing and not yet being warm. Matt cuddled into me and read me text messages and emails of support which had come in during the day. I was astonished by how many people had been following the drama.
We were back at the marina by 5, and I was still coughing. I couldn't get up the marina ramp without stopping, my breath was coming in shallow pants. With thoughts of Jessica and her aspiration pneumonia in my head, we decided to head to A&E. The Buckland in Dover only has a minor injuries clinic, but they looked me over (during which time I obligingly coughed up more bloody fluid) and sent me on to the William Harvey in Ashford. There they gave me a bed to collapse in whilst I waited, and I promptly dozed off. When I woke up I felt much better and wanted to leave but was persuaded to stay for the chest X-ray. When the results came back from that, around 9.30, they showed pulmonary edema - my lungs were filled with fluid (sea water). I would have to stay in overnight on IV antibiotic drugs and an oxygen mask (my oxygen levels were low - surprise!). The danger was that I might have aspiration pneumonia, which would be masked by the pulmonary edema, or that I might get an infection from the none-too-clean water that had got into me.
As it turned out, none of those things came to pass and I got discharged the next morning, with a raft of antibiotics to take. By then I was starting to see the event more in context, rather than just thinking about the horrific last mile or so. There were bits that had been almost enjoyable that I started to remember.
It's now 5 days later. I have recovered a lot, though I am sleeping as much as Bug and have no intention of doing anything which elevates my breathing yet. We are still in the holiday cottage - thank heavens I didn't have to work on Monday, I'm not sure I'd have made it in. I am so thrilled and relieved to have made it across. The time - 12h 31mins - was great, but it doesn't mean that much really: it could have been 11hours, Dave said, had we hung on to the tide for a little longer (ie if I had been a smidgen faster) but equally I feel like it could have been a couple of hours slower...it all depends on the conditions on the day. (By the way, Dave and his crew were terrific and I highly recommend them. I also highly recommend my own support crew, who were fantastic despite sea sickness, but I don't think they'd do it again for anyone except blood relatives.)
People ask what next. The answer is some family time and relaxation! I think I will never do a swim as cold or as long as the channel again - for a start, I can't think of one that interests me. The only swim I'm really keen to do is Manhattan Island (warmer and shorter) but there's years and years to do that in, no rush. The channel has taken so much time and commitment - not just from me, but also Matt, my parents and Matt's parents, all of whom I thank whole-heartedly for their support - that I really just want to chill out for a while. I'd quite like my weekend sport to be a 30min jog rather than 6 hours in Dover Harbour. For now, though, I plan to rest on my laurels and every once in a while say to myself "I swam to France!".
And so to the final instalment. Lex finished in a fantastic time of 12 hrs 31 mins. The last mile was punishing and I think we all wondered at one point whether it was going to happen. Once we got round the headland however and into slack water Lex made steady progress to France.
Emotions are mixed. Obviously hugely happy but perhaps a little too exhausted to let it all sink in. Have saved all of your messages to share with her later (except some of the ruder ones that levelled abuse at me, with respect to which I will be seeking legal representation to pursue my claim for slander - anyone know a good lawyer ?). At the moment she is intermitently sleeping and being sick (there is some justice in the world after all). May do little trip to A+E this evening to do a quick MOT. She will be in touch once back on her feet.
Thanks all
Matt
Right, am going in to accompany her to shore. If I die, remember that I love all of you (especially that red head I met in the bar in Puerto Rico when I was flying fighter planes for the Chilean navy).
I have one genuine concern............ that she might beat me. Will take a running dive head start or maybe I will bomb her.
I am so very very proud. She is getting cross though. She sticks her head up to ask how long every 10 mins or so. It doesn't help the cause when we keep saying 20 mins. She may withold conjugal rights.
Hope that my next missive will be the final one. It has been emotional
Matt
1.5 miles to go. Fighting tide and fatigue. Needs to work hard now to avoid being swept round headland and having to cover extra distance.
Arm stroke dropped to just under 60. Now debating whether we can take the time out from her swimming to allow her to feed. On balance will cut down the feeds so that she does not lose too much ground as she treads water. Total ellapsed swim time - 11 hours
3 miles to go. We are out of the shipping lane and the tide has turned against her. Is the first time that she has asked how far to go (suspect she can smell the garlic - also suspect she is beginning to fatigue a bit (arm stroke dropped to 60/min).
Can see the sand on the French beaches which will help I am sure with the last hour or two. Take my hat off to anyone that even considers this type of thing. To give the layman some idea of what is involved (appologies for those readers for whom this is just part of their daily routine), Lex has been cold water acclimatising since early November last year. Has involved heading up to the Serpentine come rain, hail or shine every Sat (and sometimes Sunday) morning to test their cold water limits with a whole load of other lunatics who form this fantastic subculture of London life.
This contined until April whereupon Lex headed down to Dover (again on Sat and sun) to swim open water for an increasing amount of time starting at the 1 hour mark and peaking at the 8 hour mark. This particular gathering is organised by an incredible lady callesd Fred Streeter who basicaly whips all concerned into shape (am sure Lex will have more to say about her anon). This is all on top of her 20 or so km pool swim regime during the week.
So all in all the time and effort that people put into attempting all this is astounding. Imnvariably, it is not the athletic condition of individuals that stops them making it but more a function of the conditions (cold etc) which is why the success rate is so low (more people have climbed Everest) and why the sense of achievement is and should be so high.
Anyway have to go. Lex needs some shouting as we need her to push through the tide.
Less than 10 k to go. Still 64 stokes a minute. France now fills the horizon but not sure if Lex can take herself out of the zone enough to see it. Will leave her to bash on.
Support from those reading this blog (and others has been overwhelming). Really does make a massive difference. Have been writing messages on a board for Lex to see and you can just see the lift she gets from them. Made some up about be - like what a great bloke I am etc etc. Feel free to send me platitudes as you like (no compliment is too small).
Keith and sybil doing fab job at motivating and sorting out the feeds. Really is a fab feeling seeing it all hang together - fingers firmly crossed that it lasts.
Mum , Dad and co also playing huge part in this endeavour by looking after bug. I hope for his sake that he has his mothers swimming genes.
Got to go now for next feed session. Hot chocolate and Jaffa cake dangled on fishing rod into sea. Might try at home in the future - Bug would love it.
8 hours and still going to plan. Lex's stroke is a metronomic (64 per minute every minute), long and smooth.
In 1 hour we will be out of the shipping lane and did I mention WE CAN SEE FRANCE ...............haven't told Lex yet as want to save it in case she starts to struggle at all. She is currently running broadly in line with the tide (East to West) which will turn against her in a couple of hours so feeding stops are short and sharp and she is working hard between them. Currently swimming at 7 km/h. I can't run that fast........
Almost 7 hrs in the water and still looking and sounding good. Ibuleve tablets are for a niggle in the shoulder (legacy injury so fingers crossed we can keep in check)
Conditions are nigh on perfect at the moment - sun out and sea pretty calm. Good for me as I have stopped puking - Keith (father in law) hasn't yet - tee hee hee.
Lex latest game to preoccupy herself has been to play chicken with tankers. Thought that was pretty ambitious myself given their poor turning circles and general lack of ability to stop on short notice. That said she seems to relish the challenge - even suggested going back to have another crack at one.
In terms of progress we are well over half way in terms of distance (c. 2 miles past Sandy Epp buoy). Hard to guage finish time at this stage as don't won't to tempt fate.
More anon
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Been having slight technical issues with loading up onto blog (nothing to do with my being as sick as a dog - honest. Don't think I am cut out to be a seafarer).
Anyway, onto more important matters. Been going almost 6 hrs. Lex averaging about 2 nautical miles per hour and she is looking relaxed and smooth. Early days yet but if she keeps going like this it will be fantatstic. She is feeling confident and almost seems to be enjoying the experience which is nutz given water is just over 14 degrees.
Sun is out now which helps matters but means she can't spot the jelly fish and seaweed piles for the glare off the water. Is incredible to watch her carve through it all though without so much as a second thought.
We are on strict feeding regime of every 30 mins now and she has just asked for pain killers. Assume is her shoulder and I hope this is a preventative measure rather than anything more serious.
More anon
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Well we are off. Sailed from harbour to Abbots Cliff Beach. Lex sick on the way - more nerves than the churn of the boat in the swell.
Looked good (I would say that) as she greased up. Started stronly at 2.04 am. I have nothing but admiration for her as she slips into the cold dark water and strikes for France.
First stop after 1 hour and she has covered 2 miles so all looking good (for her at least as me, Keith and Sybil have all been sick already - nice)
As we get ever deeper into the Channel season, Channel mania is taking a stronger hold on all of us. The weekend before last down in Dover all anyone could talk about was the weather and when it would clear. On Saturday not a single boat had set out to sea on an attempt in the 2007 season. Freda told me that in 1992 no-one got across til mid-August - perish the thought. By then Channel mania would be hysteria.
Apart from obsessing about the weather, we also did some swimming. Six hours of it on Saturday 7th, to be precise. That was a bit of a shock, given I was expecting another 3 or 4 hour weekend. Silly me. When the sun is out, Freda goes loooonnnnng. To be fair, there was barely a cloud in the sky, though the wind was playing to usual form for Dover Harbour this year ie blowing what felt like a gale. Still, I definitely felt the benefit of the sunshine on my back. Oddly, I couldn't quite settle for the first two hours, but I got my rhythm back in the middle two hours. I spent the last two concentrating on bashing through the chop, as the wind had really picked up and it had got very rough. No change there then. I had a shoulder pain in the fifth hour, and had to do a couple of minutes of breastroke, but that seemed to see it off. All in all, whilst still not pleasant, it was probably the best long swim so far, and I even recovered full use of my right hand by about 4 hours (not my left though - very strange).
After I got out, I had a chat with Dave Whyte, my pilot. The upshot was: not a lot. Everything depends on the weather. If there is no backlog from the current tide, he said he would definitely look at taking myself and the number one slot across before the 20th, if we had a weather window. Weather might look like a 7 letter word to you, but I can assure you it's a 4 letter word to me. Dave said I looked in good shape (I think because I was chatting to him quite happily after only ten minutes out of the water) which was nice to hear. I'll happily take a compliment from anyone, I'm not fussy, but it does mean a little more from an experienced boat pilot.
Sunday 8th I could only swim for 3 hours because of Natalie's birthday bash (Matt's cousin, who was turning 18), but Freda said that was ok. There was less sunshine on Sunday, but also no wind at all, and ten boats out in the Channel! My 3 hours was just fine - in fact, I was flying for the first two. I had just got the blood back in my toes when it was time to get out.
It's now Monday 16th, and there have been quite a few assaults on the Channel so far. Results have been mixed. It seems Sunday 8th had very few success stories - maybe as low as 3 out of the ten. Yesterday Jim and Hoffy, both of whom I know from the beach, were in the drink. Jim got pulled after 9.5hrs with a shoulder problem, poor man. Hoffy made it in a shade under 14. Well done Hoffy! Sandy also made it last week, in a storming time of around twelve and a half hours - hurrah for Sandy! Last week it felt like being pregnant again - I remember being obsessed by everyone else's labour stories even though it had no bearing on what it would be like for me. I got quite nervous and wound up about it all.
Now, though, I am in a much more chilled frame of mind. Perhaps it is because mum, dad, bug and I are now staying in a cottage near Dover, and have all the things we need for the boat pretty much ready. We came down on Sunday - the plan was that I would swim and then meet them at the cottage. The first part of that plan went without a hitch - I did a three hour swim, which was fine (I even think it has heated up a little from last week). The second part wasn't quite so easy, given that I stopped for fuel and filled the tank of the (deisel) audi with - you guessed it - unleaded petrol. I didn't even get 400m from the garage. RAC is a wonderful invention, even if the phenomenally stupid woman on the phone swore blind that there isn't an A2 within 15 miles of Dover - it's a major route! Pay attention to the map, woman, after all, it's your job! - an assertion which was responsible for them taking ages to place me. Still, eventually a nice man in a spec-lift van (I learnt the lingo so it wasn't wasted time) delivered me to the cottage.
The aforementioned cottage is great. It's really well equipped, and Bug loves the fact that he can wander all through it since it's one level (goodbye bathroom privacy). It's only ten minutes to Dover, which makes it easy for the daily swims. I bumped into two aussies, both of which are booked on this tide (Steve is #1 with Dave Whyte, and his mate Jeff is #2 with Reg) and we swam together, and have plans to meet to do the same tomorrow. It was a great swim today - very flat with some sunshine. I feel like I'm as prepared as I could possibly be and I'm enjoying relaxing and being on holiday, so really...bring it on. Though now Dave is saying that the tide is too high, and unless the weather is PERFECT he wants to wait til the official tide. So the "bringing on" of "it" will not be for a few more days at least.
Oh, for those of you with a mechanical bent who are wondering about the damage to the car: the tank was drained and filter replaced and now it's as good as new (and valeted too!). On the other hand, my stock with my husband in car matters has taken a further dive - and I didn't think it could get any lower than after my car-losing debacle in Earl's Court...
The 20th of July draws ever nearer, and still the weather resembles what you'd expect from the Highlands of Scotland in November, not the garden of England in July. There was even hail in Clapham yesterday! If the forecasters are to be believed this coming weekend will be very wet...and so will the 22-26th. Perfect. Not.
Last weekend was yet another example of dreadful weather. It was cold, it was grey, it was windy and at points it rained. (You might think we wouldn't notice that in the sea, and that's partially true - but we do notice the accompanying increased darkness and wind.) After a night in the Travel Inn with mum and Bug (there were three in the bed, and the little one said...nothing, because he doesn't talk but my god he can wriggle), on Saturday morning I approached Freda, expecting a 5 or even a 6 hour target, and felt like a kid getting out of school early when I was told 4! It was not an easy 4. It was cold and unpleasant and fairly rough, but I got there. Afterwards, we went to Hubert House and mum had a lovely time chatting to everyone whilst I stuffed my face and Bug stuffed his face and the carpet.
Sunday morning the target was 4 hours again. There was actually had a smidgen of sunshine but of course it didn't last. And it was rough. Very rough. I usually hit 6 walls before I go in for the first feed at 2 hours. This time I only managed 5 walls, and even then was 10mins late for the feed. I also got flipped onto my back a couple of times, but I managed to survive the four hours. I don't usually mind the rough weather, but by the end of a total of 8 hours at the weekend battling against the wind and waves, I did start to get a bit fed up. I mean, I really must be due some good weather by now if there is any kind of karmic balance in the world.
After the Sunday swim, I suppose some gremlins have been laid to rest, but I do still worry about the cold - these swims are far from comfortable. Freda told me not to worry, since there wouldn't be that kind of wind on the actual day, but of course it still niggles. Still, I left Dover happier than I have been after the last few weekends. We had to go to Canterbury to pick up Matt, who did the London to Canterbury Tour de France stage through the Cyclosportive race. Two punctures, a tire blow out and 6 hours 50mins later, he finished - happy enough, since it had been a good steady ride for him (apart from the 45mins of phaffing with tyres). Matt and I had our traditional debate about who was the most tired on Sunday night. Unfortunately the answer was definitely not Bug, who had slept too much in the car to have any desire to got to bed. Can you remember not wanting to go to bed? I think the definition of being a child must be not wanting to go to bed.
I digress...anyway, 16 days to go until the official start of the tide. I'm fed up with all this training now, I just want to swim to France.
Will someone please tell the weather it's June, and therefore driving rain, howling winds and nary a ray of sunshine is highly inappropriate? To be fair, if the trade-off for the current conditions is a wonderful balmy calm July, then I'd make that deal in a heartbeat, but somehow I don't think there can be any guarantees. This is what I've been reduced to: day-dreaming of hypothetical weather trades and an obsession with the web-page for Sandettie buoy (which gives the water temperature in the Dover Straits). It's a sad state of affairs, and not much consolation to know that approximately 120 other channel aspirants are in the same state.
Last weekend was horrid weather again. The water temperature had reached 15.1 degrees, but that benefit seemed to be entirely wiped out by the windchill factor. Nonetheless, we got stuck into a 7hour swim, feeding after 2 hours and every hour thereafter (maxim, as ever, but also bananas and chocolate mini swiss rolls - the latter didn't work for me, they seemed to be difficult to eat and I was left with bits in my teeth for the next hour. I'm thinking Jaffa cakes instead...). It was never a comfortable swim. Whilst my feet came back to life around the 3hr mark, the cold was always nagging at me. I left the beach horribly aware of how much the conditions can help or hinder you.
Sunday morning weather was like Saturday's - except worse. More rain and more wind, but oddly, less chop in the water. 6 hours was the target, but I didn't come close. Despite psyching myself up til my brain was like a trailer for a Rocky film, by 3 hours I had all-over shivers and came in. Rather than try and toss me back in, Barry fed me something hot and walked me up the beach so I must have looked somewhat pitiful.
Not surprisingly, this left me with a huge confidence crash. I spent Monday in a morose state, and then emailed Freda for advice. She sent me a lovely supportive email on Tuesday morning, full of confidence in me, which has helped me a lot (interestingly, she said NOT to put on any weight - you don't want to lug anything to France you haven't trained with). I am trying to banish the negativity and think strong, positive thoughts. Here's how my current thought process is working:
- if I can swim 7hours in crappy conditions whilst cold, then on the day I must be ae to swim at least 10
- 10hours should put me within a few miles of the coast. Once it's right there in the line of sight, that must help. I know with fatigue and the current, a mile can take over an hour at that stage, but once I'm that close I think I can dig in.
And anyway, the end of July is going to be gorgeous weather, just wait and see!
Outside of swimming (not that there is much life outside of swimming right now) things are good. Matt is not too busy and Bug is on good form. He watched his daddy climb the stepladder to change a lightbulb and immediately copied him - he has no fear, I think I have it all for him - and now the stepladder is his favourite thing in the world. I can think of less terrifying objects for him to want to play with!
Three and a half weeks to go, and counting.
I thought it might be an interesting/horrifying exercise to figure out how much it costs to even get to the start line to attempt a Channel crossing. Quite a few people have asked about it so it started me thinking.
On the face of it, it costs about £2,000. That's £1,750 for the boat and pilot, and the remainder for admin fees in relation to the application. But what about the hidden costs?
From January I have been training with Wandsworth Masters, Spencer Swim Team, the Serpentine Swim Club and also swimming at my gym. Combined fees for Jan-July (inclusive) of around £700. Plus babysitting fees of £600 to allow me to get to all those sessions! Then kit and accomodation in Dover (for training and for the attempt window) is another £1,000.
All in, I reckon around £4,300, which is far less horrifying than I had feared. After all, it's less than the cost of a good bike and race wheels, which seems to be Matt's yardstick for measuring any costs (the alternative of a term's private school fees is too depressing a yardstick).
I have discovered that when swimming in cold water, "are you cold?" is not the right question. It should be "how cold are you?" The last couple of weekends in Dover have been testament to this.
The week before last was a great week. Matt signed his deal late (very late) on Thursday, so we had a lovely family Friday all three of us together. I managed 15k in the pool during the week, and in Dover over the course of the weekend I increased my maximum cold water time from 40mins to 2hrs 30mins (one swim on Saturday of 1hr 45mins, and then 2 and a half hours on the Sunday). The sea was around 12.5 degrees celcius - at that temperature, my hands started clawing after an hour through loss of nerve control. It happens to everyone, but I find it mentally quite hard to take - it seems somehow very wrong to keep on swimming when your body is displaying such obvious signs of incapacitation. Still, after warming up with plenty of hot chocolate, there were no ill effects except an aching shoulder. It was interesting that I found the longer swim on Sunday easier - the sun was shining and I think that makes a big difference. I ended up with freckles and rather interesting strap marks...no strapless dresses for me this summer!
The aching shoulder was still present last week, so much so that I only managed two pool sessions. That wasn't really a disaster though, since we are starting to do so much at the weekends that the swims in the week are less valuable. Saturday was another big day - 3 hours, with a drink after 2. I swam with a pair called Katherine and Rob but they were a bit faster than me and I dropped off their pace after about 75mins, and then swam on my own. The drink was a godsend, it really seemed to warm me up and I managed the next hour without feeling too awful. When I climbed out, Bug was desperate for a cuddle but of course I was all wet and couldn't oblige - Matt and I had an entertaining time desperately trying to dry me, whilst I was shivering and my hands weren't working, with the poor wee man wailing at me until I was able to pick him up.
Sunday was a rotten day. The weather was awful - 8 degrees and rainy. Not a day for Bug at the seaside so Matt and he stayed behind. The target was 3 hours 30 mins with a drink at 2 and a half. It felt colder in the water than Saturday, although the sea must have been the same. I swam with Ian for an hour, and then picked up a gentleman called Jim. He dropped off my pace after another hour or so, and then I was on my own. I was finding it really very cold and couldn't wait for the drink. This time the drink didn't really do the trick and I still found myself feeling increasingly colder. I called it quits at 3 hours 10, and found myself experiencing whole body racking shivers as I swam into the shore. Anna was on the beach and was an absolute star - she more or less dressed me and sorted me out.
Getting out earlier than planned is a strange thing. None of us doing this sort of thing lack determination, and it doesn't sit easily to fail a target. However, I refuse to beat myself up about it: this is not just messing about in a pool, there is a real safety issue at stake here. Two and a hlaf hours later, when I got home, I was still not warm - usually I find myself stripping off layers in the car about the time I reach the M25 - so I had gotten significantly colder than before. I've reached the conclusion that you do what you can, and it's important to recognise when enough is enough, even if that means others do more than you. It's important to recognise when the answer to "how cold are you?" is heading towards "too cold for safety".
All in all, though, it feels like great progress, though oh my god it's hard work in the cold...all I can say is, bring on the gulf stream and the 2-3 degree hike it carries with it!
I shall have to get better at remembering to do this blog-posting stuff, such a lot has happened since my last posting...
Firstly, Bug had the pox. I am putting it in this fashion since "the pox" has a nice dramatic ring to it, whereas "chicken pox" is brushed off as one of those mild inevitable childhood illnesses. Whilst the latter is factually correct, that's not what it feels like when your child has open weeping sores, a sky-high temperature and is utterly, utterly miserable. Thankfully he is now over it - in fact, we've had a cold and teething issues since, so it's a distant memory even if there are a few marks still remaining.
Matt won the F3 duathlon series! His legs didn't have a lot in them on the last run of the final race, but he managed to place high enough to win overall. First prize is a bike, which of course is exactly what he needs, no respectable athlete should have only four bikes...
I won a GB road atlas! This was for coming second in a Serpentine 440m scratch race. I never had any chance of winning given Nick Adams was in the event. (By the way, I highly recommend the mozzarella slicer which was part of a previous prize haul.) Mum and I had breakfast at the Lido Cafe afterwards with Adrian, which was lovely (Matt was on Becks' stag weekend - coast-steering - which seemed to involve jumping off cliffs or some such testosterone-fuelled nonsense).
In the pool, training has been going okay, I have been hitting my 25k target each week. We also had the first training weekend in Dover last weekend (photo courtesy of Nick Adams). The water is apparently unseasonably warm at the moment (11 degrees centigrade) by which you should read still bloody freezing. Actually, it really wasn't that bad once you got going. The hardest bit for me wasn't getting into the water, it was warming up afterwards. I reckon that after getting out, you have about four minutes in which to get dressed, otherwise the shakes set in so badly that it becomes a real struggle. I hate the shivering - it's such an exhausting feeling. We did two swims each day: on Saturday, it was 30mins at 10am followed by 35 at noon. On Sunday it was 35mins followed by 40mins at noon. The second swim was easier for me both times, both the swim itself and the warming up afterwards. I've come away from the weekend feeling very positive - the water was pretty rough (it took me 12 mins from swimmer's beach to the east pier, then 20mins to get back to the beach on Sunday, so there was quite a current flowing) and at times it felt like swimming in a washing machine, but it didn't faze me so I was pleased. I now really believe this swim is actually going to happen. The other great thing is all the support you get on the beach, it's wonderful to have people there ready to help you out of the water, find your shoes, feed you something sweet...and of course the wealth of experience available to tap into is phenomenal.
Next weekend is Becks and Emma's wedding, so I shall be braving the seas of Wales for my sea swims. Apparently it is colder there right now - I suppose I shall find out for myself soon enough!
